Old Friends And Backstage Politics

I feel a lot more calmer than I did before. Then, I realized that I haven't been hanging out with Seth that much. I have to go back there at some point, this week. I need a haircut and I have no other way to get the cash to get one. Also, I really need to get my video games and stuff that I left over there. Then, I'm gone. I won't even be a memory. Dan, Chris, their girlfriends, and Steve came over on Saturday. I haven't seen those guys in a month and I've been trying to get a hold of them for a couple weeks now. Chris is now dating Bridgette's sister, Annette. A couple things that should be noted. She's 17 years old and she's acts like her sister. I realized that if anything, I have to tolerate Bridgette for Dan's sake. Same goes for her sister with Chris. With that being said, I can express how I really feel. I don't like either one of them. Bridgette's a manipulative bitch and Annette's an attention-seeking whore. The funny part is that Chris would scold me whenever I gave any girl attention. "You don't have a shot with her, so why bother?" he'd say. When we were on my deck and no one was paying attention to Annette, she'd walk to the car. Chris would go after her. It was really pathetic, but I said nothing. Chris is happy for now. I know she's gonna end up hurting him. Then again, maybe he'll end up dumping her and moving on. Dan dumped Bridgette once, although he felt extremely bad for this. She manipulated her way back into the picture. Mike Sisin and I feel the same way about that. He keeps assuring me that she'll screw it up, but I'm not so sure. If they hurt my boys, I'll make their lives a living hell. Danny taught me that. The only reason why Denna was spared, was due to the fact that her life started hitting rock bottom. Otherwise, Danny would've made her life hell. Yesterday, I went to hang out with Robin and Abby. I haven't been over there in about a month. Back in the day, I was always hanging out with Robin. Ever since I left for Cortland, I haven't really hung out with all of them like I used to. Robin graduated from BCC, so when I came back, she wasn't there. After hanging out with them, I headed over to Danny's to watch WWE Night of Champions. Sometimes, WWE and UFC PPVs can suck. WWE really hasn't had a good PPV, since WrestleMania. Last night, the PPV was very good. I was impressed. UFC has some promising cards coming up. I'm not sure if Danny plans on getting them or going to Tioga Downs or not. The next season of Ultimate Fighter starts a day before my birthday. The only problem that I have with that already, is Kimbo Slice will be competing. Kimbo Slice is already an experienced fighter from another organization. However, due to his street fighting background, Dana White has refused to sign him to a contract UNTIL he went through the Ultimate Fighter house. Come on, Dana. That's not fair to the others that aren't as experienced. I'm predicting that Kimbo's gonna bulldoze the competition. I still don't think it's fair. Then again, anything can happen in a fight. A fighter could get a lucky punch or kick in. Kimbo could make a mistake and get caught in a submission like Brock Lesnar. As far as Lesnar goes, I don't agree with how he got a title shot, but I am very glad he kicked Frank Mir's ass. However, I want someone to dethrone him. Unless he destroys Matt Hughes, then I don't care how long he has the belt. Too bad that Hughes is only a welterweight. Unless Brock cuts weight or Hughes gains weight, that fight'll never happen. Randy Couture's fighting at UFC 102. It's gonna be him and Antonio Nogueira. I'm pulling for Randy, but if Antonio gets the victory, I'm not gonna be too devastated. I like both of those guys. I'd like to see Randy Couture/Brock Lesnar II. I'd like to see a different outcome if that ever happens. Brock never deserved that belt in the first place. No wonder why fans were booing him at UFC 100. He still thinks he's in WWE. He showboated a bit. I think Kimbo Slice's in his weight class. I'd like to see Brock showboat with him in the octagon. I bet it wouldn't get him very far.

The Past , The Present, The Future

Things aren't getting any better. In fact, things are getting progessively worse. My relationship with my father isn't going very well. I'm still out of a job and long friendships are ending. The week I spent in Candor was the second to last one. The next time I go to Candor, I'm grabbing my stuff and I'm never going back. Last weeekend, wasn't that great. I stayed home for the majority of it. I only left the house on Saturday to go to the ECPW show. The new place that they had it was cold as hell. They're never having it there again. Sunday, I went to a baseball game with my dad and my uncles. We had been drinking. I'm suspecting that one of my uncles is cheating on my aunt, but I don't have solid proof. It looks that way, though. On the way home, my dad said something that triggered an emotional reaction inside me. We didn't exactly have the greatest conversation. He had been drinking too, but I think I was more out of it than he was. Both of us said things that we didn't mean. Between crying, puking, and cursing him out, I think it's safe to say that I've had better Sunday afternoons. Him and I are fine now. We both apologized and acknowledged that it was the alcohol that caused both of us to lash out. I understand where he's coming from and I appreciate that. Everybody wants the best for their kids. I know I can be better, but before I get into that, I'll get into the other events that have happened. Last Saturday, Seth and I went to his dad's 50th birthday party. That wasn't too bad. Then, we picked up Danny and went to my cousin's party before he was sent to Iraq. That wasn't too bad either. However, my dad did something that I thought was uncalled for. He shook Seth's hand as we were leaving, but refused to shake mine. The reason why this was a big deal is due to the fact that he can't stand Seth or his family. That came up in our emotional conversation on Sunday. Well, he wasn't really emotional...I was though. I understand his reasoning now, but at the time, I thought it was uncalled for. Then, I was SUPPOSED TO watch UFC 100 with Danny and Seth. Kelcie and Mike Sisin called me. They invited me to the cabin. Well, Danny and Seth were giving me a hard time about it. Eventually, Danny stopped and everything was fine. Seth on the other hand, was being an asshole. He said that if I went, he wasn't taking Kelcie with him and his family to Warped Tour. Basically, it's a three-day concert. He'd been promising her this for months. The real reason why he didn't wanna take her, was because of Mandy. She was giving him a hard time about taking Kelcie instead of her. Basically, she was manipulating him again and like the pathetic worm that he is, he was giving in. So, it had nothing to do with me. He was just making it seem like he was punishing her. Because of his attitude, I chose to go to the cabin with Mike and Kelcie. For the most part, it was the better choice with a few exceptions to some of the events that occurred that night. If I had to go back and choose again, I'd still go with my first choice. Then, he changed his mind and said she could go. However, she needed to pay $40 for the ticket. He was supposed to pay for her ticket. He promised her. I was gonna do it for her, but then the price was raised to $80 for the camp site. So, she couldn't go because of all that. Then, she called me up crying about that asshole, Cody and I finally had enough. I told her to move on. That got her annoyed at me. I just fixed that, now. Both her and Mike think I should've just kept that one to myself, but I stick with what I said. I truly feel that she needs to move on from him, because he's no better than Seth. So, because the son of a bitch has stabbed me in the back earlier this year and he pulled an asshole stunt like that to Kelcie, I'm grabbing my stuff from his place at some point, and I'm done with his ass. He's a stupid, selfish, immature, good for nothing, scumbag. My friends never liked hanging out with him. The only reason that I hung out with that idiot for as long as I did, was because his family wasn't anything like him and treated me like gold. The other reason was that I thought that maybe he'd get his head out of his ass and change. I was wrong. So, I lost two friends, this year. They're small losses, so I'm not too broken up about it. Of course, there'll be people talking. They'll say that I did it just so I could get with Kelcie. They'll say that she manipulated me into hating them. Let me just set it straight. Seth screwed Seth and Cody's responsible for the destruction of our friendship. He hurt that girl badly and I can't hang out with someone like that. Kelcie and I will never be a couple. We're just really good friends. If people see me as the bad guy, then so be it. Now, onto how things used to be. I've been thinking about how things were so much better a few years ago. 2007 seemed to be the golden year for me. I had good friends, I was working with my dad making good money, my grades weren't bad. It was just my year. 2008 wasn't too bad either. I look at how things were, then I look at them now. I'm pretty-much at the bottom. I remember when my parents compared me to Seth earlier, this year. Here's a guy that has a job and car, but nobody really wants to hang around him. Then, there's me. No job, no car, but everyone wants to hang out with me. My parents didn't see it that way. They still thought he was a loser, but they thought he was more on the ball than I was. I laughed at that. I may not have a job or a car at the moment, but someday I will. I don't think I've done half bad for a guy that doesn't have a job or a car. When Seth liked Kelcie and tried to blow past me to get with her, I rose to the occassion. I took her out to dinner twice, I took her to the movies, I danced with her at Danny's sister's party, and I had no job and no car. She always came to me. At his place, she'd cuddle with me on the couch and he'd just sit there like an idiot. Then, Mandy entered the picture again. Well, I didn't want Mandy, but he did. Yet, he was trying to get with Kelcie, so he'd invite her to all these things. When Mandy came around, he tried to cut Kelcie out of the picture, so he could get with Mandy. Here's the amusing part. I talked to Mandy about that. She only has some interest and she's not rushing into anything. Basically, Seth's gonna be her bitch. I'll admit that I'm not perfect. I'll even admit that I'm not as good as I was two years ago. But, I'll be better than I ever was. Give me two more weeks and I'll be back on top. I'm getting rid of all the losers that I've hung out with. I'll restore my confidence in myself. I'll pay the people I owe. I'll continue to focus on my goals. I might not be much right now, but it's still early yet. I'm gonna be better than ever. As for UFC 100, it wasn't a bad Pay Per View, but it wasn't a good one either. Dan Henderson knocked out Mike Bisping. Brock Lesnar knocked out Frank Mir. As far as I'm concerned, it couldn't happen to a nicer guy.

Three Weeks Of Hell

Damn, it's been a while since I've updated this thing. The Finale of the Ultimate Fighter was excellent. Ross won against his fellow UK teammate and James beat Damarques Johnson. HA! THAT'S WHAT YOU GET, BITCH! I was so glad he didn't win. Unfortunately, he'll probably get a contract even though he didn't win, because that's usually the case with all of them. A few weeks ago, I went to Robin's birthday party. It was raining, but it wasn't a bad party. It was kind of like how it used to be back in the day. All of us would hang out, bust on each other, laugh, it was fun. There has to be more days like that. Especially with all this crap going on. A couple weeks ago, I actually stayed home for a good portion of it. Father's Day was boring. It was like the previous two, where Dad and I would go to the Central Hotel Father's Day Golf Tournament. It wasn't raining, but that Saturday pretty-much ruined any chances we had to golf. I stayed home Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. I was raking the rocks around the garage for my dad. I'd also talk to him for more than five minutes. Things were starting to get a little better. Tuesday, I got this message from Bridgette Buckland saying that I shouldn't call Cody an asshole and Kelcie's a manipulative psycho. I let Kelcie know about that message, but she didn't care that much on THAT day. She was dating this paramedic and at first, she was happy with him. Wednesday, she called me wondering if I could hang out with her later. Around 9:00 at night, Seth, Mandy, and Kelcie showed up to pick me up. Seth was getting irritated at his moronic cousin, Henry as we were heading to Binghamton. By the time we got to his grandmother's place to pick them up, he was livid. So, they were shouting at each other for a few blocks until we finally dropped them off at his friend's place. Henry kept running his mouth, so Seth pulled over and got out of the car. I got out of the car to make sure he didn't do anything stupid. When Seth gets pissed, he acts like a freakin' child. At one point, I had to put him in a choke hold, so he wouldn't jump out of a moving car to beat the hell out of Henry. Mandy was driving. She drove us to where her loser ex-boyfriend was. I didn't know this, but Seth hates the guy. I thought it was due to jealousy, but it turns out that he hits women. So, Seth got back in his car and drove off without Kelcie or me. I also didn't know that Mandy couldn't hang out at Seth's house until his little brother was adopted by Scott. So, Mandy's friend took us to where we THOUGHT Seth was. Well, he wasn't there, so we headed to Seth's place. While we were on our way, Seth called his mother and told her what was going on. So, when I get to the front door, she was there to greet me. She said that Kelcie and I were fine to stay, but Mandy and her ex had to leave. Well, their ride up there refused to take them back, so they started walking. Kelcie and I chilled at the house for a bit. Seth showed up finally and apologized for ditching us. He wanted to ditch Mandy and her ex, but we were around them. He ended up taking them home as well as Kelcie. The next few days weren't that bad. Saturday, Bridgette Taylor threw a surprise birthday party for Dan. I haven't seen those guys, since May. We went to that and while I was there, Kelcie called me. She said she needed me over at her place. She was willing to come get me. There was no need for that. Seth dropped me off at her place. She took me to her backyard and the poor girl was crying her heart out. She was thinking of all the hell that Cody and Bridgette put her through. Also, her new boyfriend wasn't exactly acting like one. After she got everything out of her system, she asked me where WE were sleeping, tonight. I offered that she could stay with me at Seth's place. When I talked to Seth on the phone, he said it was fine. When he got to Kelcie's, he told me that Danny and Jay were staying as well as Mandy. I knew about Mandy, but I didn't know about the other two. Jay was being very obnoxious to the point that I was gonna tell her "know your damn role, bitch!" I didn't, but I was close. Kelcie also didn't wanna go unless Danny's brother, Calvin could go too. There was barely enough room for her and me. Also, there's something about Calvin that just rubs me the wrong way. I've heard that he's telling everyone that he slept with Kelcie. I know they didn't do anything sexual, because Kelcie doesn't lie about things like that. He's also telling her that Seth and I are laughing at her behind her back. I never say a bad word about that girl. The only time I said anything negative about her was when she was making things up about me. Seth on the other hand, says things like "She's slept with more people than her age" and "Mandy doesn't do drugs. That's why I like her more than Kelcie." Here's the amusing part. Mandy doesn't wanna date him. Just like the other girls that Seth knows...they all don't wanna date him. At least the girls that won't date me have a better reason. My lady friends won't date me because I'm too damn valuable. They won't date Seth because he's ugly and he's a freakin' pig. Anyways, Danny's sister refused to watch his kid, so him and Jay had to go back to their apartment. However, I couldn't get a hold of Kelcie to see if she still wanted to come to Seth's. I was a little pissed. The next day, I hung out with Kelcie and apologized for Seth being a pussy. Her so-called boyfriend was supposed to take her out to dinner later. Well, instead he made her feel like crap and said he heard that she was sleeping with Seth. I'm sorry, but that's just laughable. Even Mike Sisin said that if she were to sleep with anyone, he'd be the last person. Seth didn't wanna go back to Binghamton, so I called Mike up and asked him to bring Kelcie up to where I was. He wanted to hang out anyways. He asked if Shayla could come too. Seth was fine with that, so they came over. Kelcie felt a lot better after a while. They stayed there and everything was fine. I went home on Monday. When my father got home, he immediately gave me attitude about looking for a job. I was getting sick and tired of all the crap going around, so I gave him attitude back. I didn't talk to him for the rest of the time that I was home. Tuesday, around 9:00 at night, Clarissa called me, because she "heard" that Seth and I were talking about Kelcie behind her back. It turns out that it was either Calvin or this now ex-boyfriend of Kelcie's. Either way, someone's interfering where they don't belong. Kelcie's in PA right now, but when she comes home, her and I are heading over to her ex's place and he's gonna either tell me where he's getting his information from or he's getting three weeks of pent up anger inflicted on him. Kelcie let me know that she knows I'm not laughing and talking about her behind her back, so everything's fine there. I'm in Candor for a while. I hate being home and it keeps getting worse and worse each day I'm there. I might not return home until I have a job. Then, I can work on finding a place for Kelcie and me. That way both of us will be free.